18. I’m afraid of public toilets

Seriously….I am.

They are germ infested and usually covered in pee and smell really bad. What scares me the most about them is the flush. If I’m in a public restroom and there are other people flushing the toilet, I’m fine. But if I use a public restroom that’s only one toilet, I usually do my business, wash my hands, then cover my ears and flush the toilet. Don’t know why, but that really scares the crap out of me.

16. I never wear jewelery

Except for a ring that is always on my left pinky finger, my navel and tongue piercing, and my ear piercings, I don’t like wearing jewelery.

I don’t know…I feel like its too much. That and I don’t know how to accessorize. But yea, I got choked by someone when I was younger, so anything around my neck bothers me. I don’t like wearing rings (besides my pink one) cause I feel they get in the way. Bracelets just don’t cut it I guess. So yea, my outfits are left pretty bare when I get dressed up.

15. I hate bugs

And when I say bugs….I mean cockroaches.

See….any other bug, I’ll become fascinated and maybe poke it with a stick, get as close as I can, maybe even research it. But a cockroach….even seeing it being a glass at the zoo freaks me out. There is currently a dead cockroach on my floor and I make a really big loop around it to avoid it. They are nasty, ugly, and just down right scary.

12. I am afraid of the dark

So yea…a lot of people are afraid of the dark. Its a common phobia. But its not like I’m a little kid and I’m just afraid of the dark.

I’m afraid of the dark dark.

I’m talking about that complete darkness where you can’t even see your hand when you wave it in front of your face. I panic, I hear things, I freak out, I cry, I scream, etc. I can’t be in darkness like that.

11. I want a baby!!!!!!

My clock went of when I was 22. I’ve been wanting a baby for 3 years now.

No…I don’t want a baby because I know it’ll be cute and I can dress it up.

I want a baby because I want someone who will love me and rely on me to take care of them. I want that innocent love from someone who doesn’t care about me being black, or into lolita, etc. I just want to hear that little voice everyday say “I love you mommy.”

10. I have an Asian boyfriend.

My followers should know this seeing as how I do post pictures of him. But lets get this straight:

I am not some weaboo girl who sought out to date an Asian boy in hopes to be more “Asian” myself.

Truthfully, Brandon is the first (and only) Asian boy I have ever dated. I date 2 black guys when I was way younger, and 2 white guys after moving to Arizona. I never went to the “Asian” part of town and tried to scout out a boyfriend. Brandon and I just so happened. And I’m happy that we did. I don’t see him as my Asian boyfriend. I see him as the best boyfriend I have ever had in my life.